Just not enough

Seems like however hard I studied, it's not good enough. What to do? Hahaha embrace it, do my best and don't look back. Somehow somewhere there would be a place for me to go.

Space to contain something.

Heyheyheyhello.

Just got a new blog to have somewhere to write something, probably to articulate my many thoughts that I really want to share with somebody. I guess blogger makes a good listener hahah. 

Today's such a great day, with a great start :) For the first time ever in college, I'm getting an A (H1 Math), for the first time ever in college, I'm one pinch of the crop for something :') Never had I even dare to dream about, I was indeed surprised, and overwhelmed with tremendous joy that I really really really want to laugh hahaha! 40 days to A's, I'll just do my very best and God does the rest. Had a talk with the Minister of idon'tknowwhat in school today, the question she had for us really got me thinking. A very typical question, what is success to you? Back then, my answer was simply to achieve something I really want to do, say to be a doctor. I realised success is such a tangible term used by the society, is being happy every day a success? To be worry-free, peaceful, and joyful no matter the circumstances, does it count? I think I really want to master Jesus' character, that's my definition of success? Having the experience of God's overwhelming and never failing love, joy, peace and strength, it just makes me want to have that kind of life so much more. It doesn't mean to have no anxiety and insecurities or tough times, but it is because of these, I know who I can trust and put away my fears. It's just something so, nice and comforting to know His love for me is true. 

Hahaha, this is a great space for me to consolidate and set convictions. This taste of freedom after preliminary examinations is sweeter than sugar cane I can't wait for A's to come and go. There's so much I want to do in that 8 months ^^ I'm so inspired by Wongfu I think I want to try filming a short clip, though my creativity is not helping hahaha! Will it be about love, relationships, friendships, or humanity, or plants or ... ? I'll just sit here and wait for the light bulb moment teehee. I want to learn acoustic guitar, probably drums, korean language, and to be continued? Hahaha I once had this secret desire to learn the trumpet, it's such a small yet loud instrument it's just so cool. 

Yay, I think my mind is cleared. This kind of therapy seems to help in sorting out my thoughts hahaha!