I think you're quite cool like how you're so timely to bring me to you and thank you for choosing me, thank you for finding me, you really know when to come into my life hahahah! 2013 was probably a valley-ful year for me, woah it's like so low the only way is to go up. College was just scary, got countless Us for the many tests and exams, had to make a life-changing decision to either repeat another year or to go ahead with A's because the teacher said I wouldn't do well, tried to fit in everyday, struggled to be punctual for school, got scolded for a comment on a facebook page just because the teacher heard and misinterpreted it lol doubt the teacher saw the exact comment, got scolded unexpectedly because the teacher thought I wasn't trying hard I wasn't worried for my A's lol I remember how I cried in school the whole day like from 10-3pm seriously as if I arranged a consultation with my teacher early in the morning to get a lecture. Things weren't going well at home either, the cold war and being sandwiched between the two eldest. Woah God your timing is really amazing, when I first came to church in secondary three or four you didn't come into my life, because you know you can pull me closer if you came last year hahaha so cool. Thank You for bringing me to you :-)
There's so much to thank you for hahaha, exciting.
Thank you for the teachers, the class I'm placed in and my team of pingponggeeks. I think it's really not by coincidence that I'm in this class, hahaha I still remember the time I had alone with this classmate who didn't really get along well with the class, wah God just with a piano you taught me how to love with your love, that moment is so you lol, to just sit down and get to know her, hahaha I was quite touched by that moment. The teachers I had were so patient and available, I think they were really God-blessed teachers like I think I'm quite slow in understanding but during consultations they explained every detail clearly until I get it and I think they slowed down their talking pace as well hahaha that's quite funny LOL! After school hours, they aren't obliged to reply questions through whatsapp but they did, and woah it's so encouraging to know that teacher believes in me. I still remember I consulted this teacher regarding uturning and woah his wise words are so psychologically spot on and like with full conviction he said "Honestly I'm not worried because I know you can do it." Like woahhhhhhhhhhhhhh so touched #gdll. Thank You God for speaking through him hahaha! I think my team of pingponggeeks made college life much better, hahaha trainings were the only time I was so comfortable to be truly myself, to do stupid things and just play around and laugh when I'm feeling good and to be tired and not talk when I'm feeling sian. Thank God there's still a way of release of all the accumulated awkwardness and bottled feelings at the end of the day. To think I got cheated to join this cca hahaha!
Thank you for the shepherd, the sheep, the lifegroup, the leaders, the church and you God :) So blessed to be placed in JCNE hahaha God your plan too zai alr lol! If I didn't get into nanyang I wouldn't have known you I wouldn't be in JCNE and I would have missed out so many great things you have in store for me hahaha, to think sometimes I still question myself why didn't I just follow my heart and go ngeeannpoly lol. Wah God your anointed ones really super zai, all so wise and wise like all the mindblowing questions that set me thinking totally blow my mind sometimes blow until I don't even know the answer hahaha. Thanks God for using these people to lead me to you, to guide me to do greater things for you, to fertilise my soil to water the seed in me, to pull me closer to you. Thank you for being there through my darkest valley, thank you for your unfailing and unconditional love, thank you for your presence. I'm quite excited for what is to come in 2014 hahaha, I hope my roots grow deeper in you, that whatever may come, the flood, tsunami, I'll set my eyes above the waves, my hope anchored in You, in who You are, and not in the circumstances because You bring hope in hopeless situations, You do the impossibles that's way beyond my imagination I'M SO EXCITED HAHAHA!
Yay goodbye 2013, bring it on 2014!
#godlydefiance
Psalm 42:5
Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
