好久不见

Hahaha, hello God, it's been really long.

I'm already in the first semester of university heh and it's coming to an end in 4 weeks LOL. Thank you for sustaining me, your fingerprints is really evident in this whole adm thing. Thank you for the friends and classmates that you've provided, thank you for this whole new beginning where I can really be comfortable for being who I'm. Rarely people asked me why I'm so quiet because to them I'm known to be noisy hahaha. Thank you for the extra dosage of strength when sleep was reduced to less than 20 hours in total for the entire week, how did I even survive. Thank you for the creative juices and ideas for my projects, especially those last minute ones hahahah! One of which is the first photography project for 4D, wah the first time I ever share my testimony to such a big group. Thank you for the availability of my model and the location, all in one day hahaha, it's really your providence for your idea :') Thank you for refreshing me again and again even when I fail you so many times, and I can say I'm really unfaithful in this period, yet you are still faithful, I see you in the small details of my life, from the cab to the people to the small surprises, you never fail to amaze. The most awww moment with you was on that friday night of the super-little-sleep week, wah I think I was really drained physically, mentally and emotionally. When I entered into worship, I was really touched by your love through the song When God Ran, wah the image is really :')  Thank you showering me with your unconditional love I really don't deserve, it's by your grace and thank you so much for that.

Now I understand why the first few words that come to people's mind about adm is very hiong LOL! Assignments keep coming day in day out, it never ends and it never will. But thank God it's really something I enjoy doing, like more hand work than brain work, and for the first time ever in my life I quite like school not just for the friends HAHAHA! Praise God :) And it's also the period I accounted for quite a few things that happened hahaha. Thank God for the miracle work at home too :)

Thank you for yesterday's service, teach me how to be a child again, how to be a child who knows that her dad is no ordinary father but the Most High God.

The leap of faith is daunting, but it is a leap of faith.

Outrageous love

Hey God, 

Just wanna thank You for pouring your love out for us, for me:) Indeed, your love is way beyond what human mind can comprehend! So touched by your love today, that while we were still sinners, you died for us so that we may have forgiveness! Who are we that you're so mindful of us! How great is your love :) soso overwhelmed and amazed at your love, you're alive!!:') Thank You Jesus :)

The moon and stars they wept
The morning sun was dead
The Savior of the world was fallen
His body on the cross
His blood poured out for us
The weight of every curse upon Him

One final breath He gave
As heaven looked away
The Son of God was laid in darkness
A battle in the grave
The war on death was waged
The power of hell forever broken

The ground began to shake
The stone was rolled away
His perfect love could not be overcome
Now death where is your sting?
Our resurrected King
Has rendered you defeated

Forever He is glorified
Forever He is lifted high
Forever He is risen
He is alive, He is alive! :)

You know best.

亲爱的天父你好，

Monday was so nerve wrecking, the wait was like a ticking bomb in the heart, waiting to explode, waiting for a name that never got called. The moment came when the results slip was just in front of me, omg why is the results slip not sealed up, want to hide also cannot lol. "Congratulations," hahaha really, lol probably congratulations for surviving through 2 years of shit. And dadadadaaaa, 跑不掉了. Got sucked into the whirlwind of emotions when I realised I sacrificed biology and economics for chemistry, that's the dumbest thing to do ever, neglected 2 for 1, lol how stupid. I never expect to do so badly for my once best subject it became the worst of all. BCD is not even close to what I expected I didn't think it was good? Little far from good probably. Hahaha so lame to cry in school I thought the gp consult was the last. Sad for quite awhile, eyes got so tired it ran out of water LOL seriously, and got over it. Woahhh sososo amazed by the instant healing like suddenly no tears and my soul wasn't even the least sad LOL 应该是God! Sad no more!

God, thank You for the BCD because they're great in Your eyes. Thank You for reassuring me that I didn't have to uturn and spend another year because you know what's ahead of me is the best and it is all going according to Your plan, praise God :)

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Love that fills.

Hello God,

It's been almost a month since I've started working in the childcare, and hahaha I can't wait for monday to come woohooooo^^ The kids are really really really cute and chubby and light and huggable and carryable! Just yesterday, my favourite boy ran over and hugged me when I stepped into the class omg sososo cute his eyes were like ^^ complimenting the wormy thick eyebrows LOLLL! Thank You so much for opening the door for me to have so much joy in my work and wah the kids are really the ones I look forward to everyday:) And yay, had my first fruitful conversation with one of the colleagues, getting to know her and wah really thank God for her for showing me the ropes and opening up to me to share about her life :) Okay I need to be braver to talk more!

Good news is that I'm enjoying my work. Bad news is that I'm so tired everyday my walk with You is challenged. Days when I compromised my quiet time for more sleep, when I became a Martha, I felt so much like a Martha it was a little tiring. Sometimes I forget how Your presence feel like, as though like I was placed under anesthesia lol. But woahhhhh the first corporate prayer meet of the year yesterday was so woah I feel so refreshed, it was so damn good to be able to just sing songs to You to worship You to just soak myself in Your presence. Thank You for showing me Your love once again, the very reason that's keeping me in church.Thank You for reassuring my anxious heart that You'll speak. Thank You for bringing me back to this heart of worship. Thank You for Your love. Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me.

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases.
His mercies never come to an end.
They are new every morning, new every morning.
Great is Thy faithfulness, O Lord,
Great is Thy faithfulness.

Refreshed, renewed, let's go!
I love You :-)

let's start afresh? :-)

Dear God,   

I think you're quite cool like how you're so timely to bring me to you and thank you for choosing me, thank you for finding me, you really know when to come into my life hahahah! 2013 was probably a valley-ful year for me, woah it's like so low the only way is to go up. College was just scary, got countless Us for the many tests and exams, had to make a life-changing decision to either repeat another year or to go ahead with A's because the teacher said I wouldn't do well, tried to fit in everyday, struggled to be punctual for school, got scolded for a comment on a facebook page just because the teacher heard and misinterpreted it lol doubt the teacher saw the exact comment, got scolded unexpectedly because the teacher thought I wasn't trying hard I wasn't worried for my A's lol I remember how I cried in school the whole day like from 10-3pm seriously as if I arranged a consultation with my teacher early in the morning to get a lecture. Things weren't going well at home either, the cold war and being sandwiched between the two eldest. Woah God your timing is really amazing, when I first came to church in secondary three or four you didn't come into my life, because you know you can pull me closer if you came last year hahaha so cool. Thank You for bringing me to you :-) 

There's so much to thank you for hahaha, exciting.

Thank you for the teachers, the class I'm placed in and my team of pingponggeeks. I think it's really not by coincidence that I'm in this class, hahaha I still remember the time I had alone with this classmate who didn't really get along well with the class, wah God just with a piano you taught me how to love with your love, that moment is so you lol, to just sit down and get to know her, hahaha I was quite touched by that moment. The teachers I had were so patient and available, I think they were really God-blessed teachers like I think I'm quite slow in understanding but during consultations they explained every detail clearly until I get it and I think they slowed down their talking pace as well hahaha that's quite funny LOL! After school hours, they aren't obliged to reply questions through whatsapp but they did, and woah it's so encouraging to know that teacher believes in me. I still remember I consulted this teacher regarding uturning and woah his wise words are so psychologically spot on and like with full conviction he said "Honestly I'm not worried because I know you can do it." Like woahhhhhhhhhhhhhh so touched #gdll. Thank You God for speaking through him hahaha! I think my team of pingponggeeks made college life much better, hahaha trainings were the only time I was so comfortable to be truly myself, to do stupid things and just play around and laugh when I'm feeling good and to be tired and not talk when I'm feeling sian. Thank God there's still a way of release of all the accumulated awkwardness and bottled feelings at the end of the day. To think I got cheated to join this cca hahaha! 

Thank you for the shepherd, the sheep, the lifegroup, the leaders, the church and you God :) So blessed to be placed in JCNE hahaha God your plan too zai alr lol! If I didn't get into nanyang I wouldn't have known you I wouldn't be in JCNE and I would have missed out so many great things you have in store for me hahaha, to think sometimes I still question myself why didn't I just follow my heart and go ngeeannpoly lol. Wah God your anointed ones really super zai, all so wise and wise like all the mindblowing questions that set me thinking totally blow my mind sometimes blow until I don't even know the answer hahaha. Thanks God for using these people to lead me to you, to guide me to do greater things for you, to fertilise my soil to water the seed in me, to pull me closer to you. Thank you for being there through my darkest valley, thank you for your unfailing and unconditional love, thank you for your presence. I'm quite excited for what is to come in 2014 hahaha, I hope my roots grow deeper in you, that whatever may come, the flood, tsunami, I'll set my eyes above the waves, my hope anchored in You, in who You are, and not in the circumstances because You bring hope in hopeless situations, You do the impossibles that's way beyond my imagination I'M SO EXCITED HAHAHA!

Yay goodbye 2013, bring it on 2014! 

#godlydefiance

Psalm 42:5 

Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? 

Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.